GReeting and sad notings

Sunday, December 6, 2009

So kamusta naman ang mahigit dalwang buwan na pagdidisappear ko sa mundo ng blogspot dahil sa soul searching? chareng lang... hindi uso yun sakin.
Parang wala lang.. wala rin naman akong avid fans, wala pa kong binabayaran para i-follow ako. (ahahaha...echusa!!)

Ganto lang talaga ako pag walang masabi bilang kakadating lang ng internet namin after maglipat bahay.

Namiss ko sila Chyng, Dhee, Kuya Dark Horse, si pope saka si marco. (kunwari super duper close tayo ha saka magcomment kayo kunwari namiss nyo ko...ahahaahha)

Anyways, napuno kasi ako ng masyadong sentiments sa dami ng ngyari sa bansa natin as the year heads to its ending. Gagawa siguro muna ako ng list kung ano ang mga isusulat ko.. pero bilang patikim, gusto kong gumawa ng ode for Efren Penaflorida sa pagbibigay nya ng magandang halimbawa sa mga ambisyoso nating politiko na walang ginawa kung di magpaganda ng bahay.

Salamat kay Kuya Ef dahil pinakita nyang hindi mo kailangan magkaraoon ng posisyon para tumulong. Congrats din kay Manny for having the highest achievement a boxer could ever have bukod sa black eye at pagkaalog ng utak. Kahit ano pang rumors, you still made us proud to be filipinos. Pero sana like Efren, stay away sa politics (I HOPE).

Congrats din kay Rubilen Amit and Efren "Bata" Reyes for winning the World Mixed Doubles Classic.

Ang dami nating achievements this year... too bad na WE COULD HAVE BEEN SAVOURING this moment... but I personally feel sorry that these things happen along with the media killings in Maguindanao.

Sa mga Ka-baro kong mamamahayag at mga sibilyan na brutal na pinatay dahil sa mga GANID at mga GARAPAL na mga AMPATUAN. Nakakaiyak dahil ang ganda ng bahay nyo habang naghihirap ang mga tao.. di na kayo nahiya.

Anyways, I'm trying to contain myself not because Im scared but because maghahanda ako ng isang blog entry just for them. WALA silang puso so don't expect any from the rest of filipinos. HAY, susubukan kong magpakahinahon.

Til here...
bukas ako magsusulat pag nasa hulog na ko.

Muah muah

Si ONDOY

Sunday, September 27, 2009

MALUPET ang hagupet ni Ondoy sa Pinas lalo na dito sa Metro Manila. Iba tagala pag natural disaster noh.. lahat ng tao from politician.. celebs to ordinary people na may third floor ang bahay ay talaga namang apektado ni pareng Ondoy.

Pero sabi nga sa bawat pagsubok, dapat meron tayong natutunan. At kung wala ka pa ring natutunan ke binaha ka o hindi eh panahon na siguro para ulanin yung bahay mo lang... maygad naman.

Anyway, the very day na dumalaw ang powerful na si Ondoy eh naghahanda ako for my UAAP coverage. Akalain mong sa kabila ng lahat eh yun ang iniisip ko, pero ayon, nacancelled din ang games.

Then I started complaining... bukod sa nasayang ang weekend na dapat sana eh iuuwi ko ng probinsya o kaya inonood ko ng sine eh hindi makalabas dahil sa powerful na ulan kaya binaha din ng bongga ang labas namin. Bukod sa pagkabum ay narating ko

ang fulfillment ng isang BUM ng mawalan ng kuryente!!!!!!!!! POWER...less! At unti unting nawala ang power ng mga cellphone at (at the Provident Villages Marikina)
maging ng makasaysayan kong blackberry na kahit pa may internet eh nadrain din naman ang battery, powerful!!
(at brgy Sto. Nino in Marikina)

It was only until I saw what happened to SM centerpoint at yung video sa UERM na ang ingay ng mga nagrecord, that I realized that I don't even have an inch of right to complain. May batang tinangay ng alon sa drainage, most of our fellows got stranded and were left homeless in Cainta, Marikina and Pasig.

Then, the rain stopped but it was still dark. People may continue cursing Ondoy but what most dont know eh may paparating pang bagyo after three days.. si PEPING. I stopped cursing Ondoy and started praying for his victims. I wish politicians who aspire to become leaders in 2010 can start helping now kahit pa PR kasi marami ang mga hindi pa nakakakain up to now. Pero umaasa naman ako na at times like this, everyone can really extend help sincerely. (SANA)

I don't have cash but I can blog and I have loads of prayers for everyone.

on my facebook, I posted:

FATHER You are King over the flood, I will be still and know You are God. (Ps 46:10)

Learning to free yourself

Friday, September 11, 2009

Hi everyone, I found this story from The Secret of Letting Go by Guy Finley and I hope you'll be enlightened just the way I did on me.

An evil sorcerer once hypnotized a group of captives into believing that whatever he wanted was what they wanted. It was a powerful black spell. Not only did it keep of his psychic slaves unconscious to his own feelings, but also made him believe that he had no choice but to feel that way.

And so these poor men and women worked willingly for the sorcerer even though they were often commanded to act in ways that made them go against their own true nature. Year after year they went on hurting one another as they continued to toil unknowingly under the evil influence of his cruel spell. Then, one day, right in the middle of a carrying out one of the sorcerer's wicked wishes, one of the captives had a startling insight. It came to him like a blot of lighting. He wondered why he had never before thought to ask himself such simple question. Here is what he wondered even as he was struggling to complete his unpleasant appointed task.

"If I am doing what I want to do, how come it hurts me to do it?" There was no way for him to know it right then, but this is seemingly unimportant question was the beginning of a great miracle that would one day allow him to command his own life once again.

From that point on, everyday and every time he would find himself unexplainably unhappy he would ask himself this same question: If I am doing what I want to do, how come it hurts me to do it? What he didn't know was that each time he asked this of himself, he was, at that same moment, delivering a smashing blow to the hold of the sorcerer's evil spell. Soon the happy day arrived when he just couldn't find anymore good reason, in his own mind, to go on hurting himself. This final realization spelled the end of the evil influence in his life. He escaped his unhappy existence and fled home to freedom.

GIST: No one really wants to talk about it, but the truth is there is a kind of evil spell hanging over each of us and our world as well. In fact, part of this global spell is our DENIAL OF ITS EXISTENCE. It's called SUFFERING. Everyone does it--and everyone like the hypnotized captives in our story-- everyone believes that their suffering somehow benefits them.

Example, to be angry is to suffer. Anger hurts whoever is angry and it ruins relationships and causes regrets and heartache. Yet, inspite of all these facts, when we feel angry it feels right. Any negative emotions feel like they are in your best interest, because at the time of their intrusion into your life, they temporarily fill you with a powerful false sense of self. However, like in the story, this lying feeling can only exist without your conscious consent or awareness of it being there. The truth guarantees you will stop doing what you don't want to do once you know what you have been doing against yourself. Remember the question that freed the hero in the story:

If I am doing what I want to do, how come it hurts me to do it?

I highly recommend this book. sa totoo lang, this story is just one because each pages really count. kung medyo rare ako magpost ngayon, busy lang ako kakareflect sa book na to. Letting go is not only for the lovers ha.. it also covers those people na may mga frustrations. basta read it, popost ulit ako next time.

25 random things about me

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

1. I am a nature lover even when I was a kid so I used to collect drift woods and stones and keep it in our drawer but my sisters said that was freaky like I'm a witch.

2. I'm a huge fan of rice. When I was younger, I'd rather eat rice and pour coffee or milk and sugar.That's a meal for me.

3. I'm scared of higad, worm and snake. I'll have goosebumps even by seeing it on a magazine. When I was in high school under COTC, my commandant asked me if I'm scared of worm, I said NO then he made me hold the worm for minutes but after few seconds, he realized that I'm gonna faint in no time.

4. I successfully transferred our washing machine from our house to my neighbor's because of adrenaline rush. Our house is located in a flood zone area. My neighbors just cant believe I was standing before them carrying the huge washing machine. Our house was a total disaster when I went back.

5. The first thing that I look into a song is the story in it, the LYRICS then melody is just next in line.

6. I'm totally hopeless romantic. I can do anything for someone I love, but I tend to be idealistic in terms of what a guy should do for me, so I sometimes end up getting upset if a guy doesn't meet my expectations.

7. I'm a big fan of Angel Locsin, don't know why and I had a chance to interview her but then I just wanted to look at her endlessly...HAHA!

8. I used to be a missionary. My first mission trip was in Ilocos Norte when I was just 14 years old. I was spreading the word of God to my fellow youth.

9. I was the CORPS EX-O/S3 of our CAT class, I love parade, riffle and swords drill. If I was just long legged, I would have tried PMA.

10. I look and act like a boy when I was in grade school level, there was one time a bully stepped on my way, I exchanged punches with him. His tall and deep inside I was hurting but I never showed any pain.

11. I never show my real feelings to my loved ones when I feel sad. When my elder sister left for Kuwait, everyone in the family was crying and I didn't. But as soon as I got into my BFF's house, my tears were endless.

12. I was diagnosed with bronchial asthma when I was in grade school. But that was long ago, I'm physically fit now, but I sometimes can't breathe well.

13. The very first time I ever saw a human's internal organ was my mom's operation. The doctor asked how old I was. I said 20, then she showed me mom's ovary. Since then, I hate doctors...LOL!

14. I'm bad in remembering names and dates but my long term memory is good in remembering conversations with other people which turn out to be in significance when I have to solve cases sometimes. I have a detective instinct.

15. I used to be a stage thespian. I even dream of having my future in broadway but I suck in dancing. But I have a lot of respect on stage acting and if you want to see the serious side of me, you better wait for my next performance and watch me internalize.

16. I'm a huge fun of psychology and literature. I love understanding people (not judging). Psychology was even my first choice when I was to enter college and pursue psychiatry. I just got upset when my professor in general psychology made us memorize that nerve cells "stuff". So I said, OK.. this isn't for me.

17. I have never changed my playlist since I graduated, and til now-- the first song I always play is With you and All my Life. I can listen to those songs whole day long.

18. I can speak and understand gay lingo. FYI, I have my college barkada composed of 7 gays and 7 females.

19. I rarely do group messaging on phone. I don't like receiving one either.

20. I started playing guitar when I was 13. I was only pretending back then that I know how to play it just so I won't play banduria anymore. ( I only knew chord: A that day and now.. I play)

21. I used to be so sensitive at home. I can spend a whole week without talking to my sister if we have arguments back then. I don't know how I changed, they say because of theater and the gays.

22. The greatest compliment I ever received was from Prof. Barro in our PR class when she said I look so much of her when she was at my age (in terms of skills) and I have a great future ahead. She is always the most credible person to tell my strengths and weaknesses.

23. I used to promise mom that I will build her a big house and take her to Disneyland. Now, I'm working on that.

24. I had a relationship with a gay. He gave me the most romantic valentine, I must credit him for that but I might never enter this kind of relationship again. No regrets though. I never really care whom I'll end up with so long as I am loved and I really am in love.

25. I am a very serious person. My long time friends would know that. I love philosophical conversation and reading Mitch Albom's, Coelho's and Bob Ong's, although I crack jokes most of the time.

In Cory's memory

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

I was assigned to cover former President Cory Aquino's wake today. I felt so much intense and syempre excited kasi at least, di muna ako tatamaan ng player na tumatalsik habang kumukuha ako ng picture. (Seryoso, tinamaan ako on national television kaya nagpagupit ako para di ako mamukaan ng mga tao).

Kidding aside, it was indeed a tiring day and super nakakagutom dahil di pwedeng mawala sa paningin ko ang Manila Cathedral lalo't dadating noong mga panahong yun ang mga Marcoses. So all day, nakasurvive lang ako sa isa't kalahating balot ng skyflakes (dapat dalwa kaso binawi ng kasama ko dahil nagutom din sya). But despite the fact that I have become an epitomy of oiliness for a day, I felt honored to have covered such event.

At least, pag nagbasa ang mga future anak ko ng history, pwede kong sabihin na "in the process" man ng paglikha sa akin during Edsa 1, at least I was there during our great president's wake.

Sabi nga, rarely would there be a great leader and be an inspirational one, and she truly is. I was actually awake during the very moment she died, but I never want to blog just for the sake na may nablog ako about her. I want to be part of it. And now, I am...was.

Hindi ko man nasaksihan ang people power noon, as a media practitioner and free blogger, I owe her the freedom of press I have right now and I know that all the "thank you's" to her comes from the deepest sincerity of everyone who gave so much effort just to pay their last respect.

Pero syempre, picture picture muna habang antay sa VIPs.

for the last time, Thank you Madame Cory!

how to say I LOVE YOU

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Perhaps July is the month of heavy rains and flood, but poured a lot of happiness in my life this year. I was given the chance to be with the most special man in my life.. for the whole month, my birthday as well.

Kahit naman sinong babae, somewhere there... happiness na nila ang makasama ang taong mahal nila and the feeling is just the same with me. Kung sabihin nya nga na magjumping rope ako in one leg o mag wall climbing ng walang kamay gagawin ko.. ganon ko sya kamahal..

But yes, things can't last long because he has to go back to states and study. And so Im here, back to reality but still hoping for chances to happen.

Kung bakit kasi ang hirap pag taga-third world country ka, kahit dadalaw ka lang di mo magawa. Alam nyo bang out of desparation eh naisip ko na sumulat ke Ellen or Oprah para igrant ang wish ko na madalaw sya sa US para at least ako naman yung nag-effort. Kaso sabi ng officemate ko, wala naman daw akong malalang sakit kaya baka hindi i-grant ang wish ko.

(ito ang video namin, mejo konti pics kaya paulit ulit)


Pwede ba tayong gumawa ng foundation na pwede igrant ang wish dahil sa sobrang pagmamahal sa isang tao?? Raise your right foot! Hay, miss na mis ko na sya. Tulungan nyo naman ako sumulat ke oprah, yung maiintindihan nya na si Nelson lang ang kayang makapagpasaya sakin.. kahit visit lang... (grabe noh, oo ganito ko magmahal).

Ano, tutulungan nyo ba ko? hay....

22

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Birthday ko bukas..july 21 2009
para lang malaman nyo at baka mag-abala kayo na magregalo, hindi ko tatangihan pero ito din ay reminder na oo...tao ako. pinanganak ako 22 years ago..at ngayon..eto, gastos na naman..hahaha!


22 years ago, pinangalangan ako ng nanay at tatay ko ng joyjoy kahit na marjorie ang tunay kong pangalan, pampalubag loob sa sarili ko, inassume ko na lang na i bring double happiness to people.

Sa pag-assess ko na naman sa sarili ko, feeling ko naman oo..capable ako magdala ng kaligayahan sa tao. Yun nga lang, sa loob ng 22 years.. pakiramdam ko..ako ang naghahanap ng isang bagay na kayang makapagpasaya sakin.

Alam nyo yung konsepto ng umay, ayon...ganon ako..naumay din ako magpatawa minsan, sabi nga ni charlie choplin, "I always want to walk in the rain so that no one will see me crying"

lahat naman ata ng komedyante may ganitong kaartihan, pero alam nyo..I know I have lived a good life..

ke oras ko na o hindi, I know i have touched other people in my own way. may hinahanap lang naman ako na isang happiness... siguro yung isang taong hinahanap ng bawat tao, yung taong kakailanganin mo pa rin kahit buo ka na.

Marami akong frustrations sa buhay, pero iba ang regrets...konti lang ang ganonng eksena sa buhay ko dahil lahat ng pwede kong gawin just to keep the persons i love... ginawa ko. sa loob ng 22 years.. konti lang ang regrets ko at nagpapasalamat ako.

Sa lahat ng bloggers, lalo kay chyng at syempre sa mga suki ko... salamat sa masugid na pagsubaybay.

ngayong 22 na ko, sa susunod kong blog..gagawa na ako ng agong description sa sarili ko. haha
love you all