Thursday, February 26, 2009
And I blog again.YES!
I've been busy at work lately and will continue being busy for the following days. I plurked this day : "I hate myself". Some friends reacted, so am I. I think this is the first time I told myself "I hate you".
My sister used to call me 'nars' as in narcisist, simply because they always hear me say "I love myself" and because I love posting pictures of myself on my social networking sites. But I know my sister doesn't go beyond that reason. She knows how much I love them and how I just love them unconditionally.
But yes, I love myself. I always say that. I have all the reasons to say so. I'm always thankful for what I am capable of. But at one point in our lives, there's this phase that we have to accept what we're not capable of. But that's not the main reason why I hate myself this day. It's because I know that I am not helping myself. I wish I could be more than yesterday. I tend to get stuck in mediocrity. And I hate it.
And the first step to move forward is to assess and accept who I am today. Then do something out of it. The room for improvement is always open, I just have to enter it.
But yes, like what my mom and my other half always tell me. Never hate yourself. I owe myself an apology. I should have said, "I hate what I did today". And yes Joy, I miss you. You should regain back who you used to be when you were determined to reach your goals. And yes, I love you.
Believe in yourself. you can do it.
I've been busy at work lately and will continue being busy for the following days. I plurked this day : "I hate myself". Some friends reacted, so am I. I think this is the first time I told myself "I hate you".
My sister used to call me 'nars' as in narcisist, simply because they always hear me say "I love myself" and because I love posting pictures of myself on my social networking sites. But I know my sister doesn't go beyond that reason. She knows how much I love them and how I just love them unconditionally.
But yes, I love myself. I always say that. I have all the reasons to say so. I'm always thankful for what I am capable of. But at one point in our lives, there's this phase that we have to accept what we're not capable of. But that's not the main reason why I hate myself this day. It's because I know that I am not helping myself. I wish I could be more than yesterday. I tend to get stuck in mediocrity. And I hate it.
And the first step to move forward is to assess and accept who I am today. Then do something out of it. The room for improvement is always open, I just have to enter it.
But yes, like what my mom and my other half always tell me. Never hate yourself. I owe myself an apology. I should have said, "I hate what I did today". And yes Joy, I miss you. You should regain back who you used to be when you were determined to reach your goals. And yes, I love you.
Believe in yourself. you can do it.
